I guess for some, I need to grab your attention before you leave. I'm a 17 year old all american football player from Texas who has come to realize I'm gay! Shocked! maybe not. It's the millenium why the hell should anyone care? My story is alot deeper than it seems. The personal demons I deal with everyday have caused me to become a "loner." Don't get it misunderstood, I have many many friends and a hot azz girlfriend that everyone wants. I'm top of my class and the NFL is right around the corner for me. My father is the CEO of a fortune 500 company and my mother is a surgeon. I'm the only child and I pretty much have everything that a highschool kid could want, except for......... we 'll get to that part later. I'm considered to be the hottest thing on the market right now, something like a "hot seller."

Some people might find my story a little spoliy but who cares.So let me introduce the most important people in my life. Leslie, my girlfriend has been in my life since we were 7. My best friend, Cody has been my left hand man since daycare age. I know you're wondering what the hell I'm doing with a girlfriend if I'm gay. She doesn't fuckin know but eventually she will find out. Ok so now, you're calling me an asshole because I'm eventually going to break her heart. Once again, who give's a shit what you think. Shit happens! I will say when she does find out, she is going to have more to deal with than just me being gay.

The question is when did i I figure out I was gay? I have known since I was a kid. I use to play with other little boys penises when I was in daycare. NO MOLESTATION PEOPLE!! I'm sure they are into men now as well. My attraction has always been toward boys and not girls. I guess thats the way of life. The only reason why I haven't come out is because I wouldn't be excepted by ANYONE in my life. NOR will they except the fact that I'm in love with another man! wow where did that come from? This is the demise of my life. He doesn't know that I'm in love with him and I'm not sure he will ever know. Well, I can't say that because I will eventually get up enough nerve to tell him but right now, it's not going to happen. I'm stuck with the issue that he won't feel the same way but I still have the hope that I just might be his out. Plus he belongs to someone else, another woman that is. We will see what happens!

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